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Lately, I've found myself sitting around late at night doing nothing but zoning out and thinking about absolutely nothing. Doesn't sound too strange if I was tired and wanting to sleep, yet the funny part is that I wasn't fatigued in the slightest. And then there are the nights where I am dead tired and want to do nothing else but sleep, but find myself lying awake in bed contemplating. Not necessarily contemplating anything major, but just unable to sleep as my head becomes enveloped in thoughts.
I'm not afraid to admit to everyone that I am completely confused as to what is going around me right now. I've never really been placed in a situation like this before, and I honestly don't know how to react to it. Maybe I should be more proactive in finding a remedy to my predicament, or maybe I should just sit back and let life take me where it intends to take me. Either way, I will still be standing in the same shoes that I'm wearing now. And yes, I mean that in a figurative way.
So in a sense I feel as if I should just leave this decision to fate and just flip a coin. Whichever side it lands on shall be my destiny. But at the same time, leaving it to fate is the same thing as picking the aforementioned second option. As such, I suppose that I'll just leave my fate in the hands of whatever higher authority commands us as humans, and just see where I end up.
On that note, I would very much like to wrap up this post.
I guess I'll see you there. Or not. Either way, it was meant to be like this.
Labels: confusion, contemplating, decision, destiny, fate, insomnia, Life, thinking
You whispered in my ear that it will all be alright.
But then I realized all is not as it seems,
I am living in a world of fantasy and dreams.
You told me one thing, then told me another,
Drowning in lies, I could not help but feel smothered.
When we finally decided it was over I thought you moved on,
What a treat it was to find out that I was wrong.
Still pointing the finger as if you were not to blame,
You have much to learn about how to play the game.
Because in the end when you spew lies too fast,
It will come right back and bite you in the ass.
Something I wrote myself, it is very last minute and very unpolished. Figured there would be a couple people out there interested in reading it.
Moral of the story? Point the finger as much as you want, in the end you still share the blame.
Actually, let me put it this way. I found this on a website, think it kinda sums things up pretty well.
"Shut Up, Grow Up, and Put Up."
****EDIT****
This was written in response to a talk with an old friend. Please do not assume things about my current situation or anything of the like.
Labels: blame, deceit, dream, fantasy, lies, poem, truth
What happens when we learn some of the unspoken truths about our heroes? What happens when we find out that these people aren't really who they're chalked up to be? What are we supposed to do with our lives after we find out the people we have idolized for so long are fake?
Frankly, there's two options. You can give up on your dreams, take the easy way out, and just decide there's nothing worth working towards anymore. It's as easy as that, just let go and let your emotions get the best of you.
Or, you can choose to walk the more difficult, but more rewarding road. You can keep your dreams, foolish as they may seem to you after being crushed. You can follow the path already laid out by your former hero, and then take that one extra step that they were never able to. Change directions ever so slightly and aim to become even better than the person you once looked up on. Draw on that new revelation and surpass your expectations and become your own hero.
But the fact remains, that first path is always so tempting.
Labels: accomplishment, cool, disappointment, dream, Hero, hope, idol, rewarding
I am currently a graduate student studying education and will update my thoughts and experiences here periodically. Though the content of my blog may not always be the most intellectually stimulating, I believe that there is always a lesson to be learned from my posts, even if it's just a nonsensical story. I find poetry in ordinary life experiences and capture what memories I can through my camera's lens. At the end of the day I'm just another regular guy who needs to write his thoughts somewhere, and I hope you get some enjoyment out of my musings.
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